Hello, readers,
Before i start talking about today let me add a sentence about yesterday! – So yesterday me, mom and pug visited moms friend who has a little summer house near sea, when i say summer house i don’t mean a mansion or anything fancy, but just a little house with no water and such, just like my grandparents summer house. We ate lots of greens from garden and now have a collection of different salads at home too, also we went to the seaside and i played in the waves and swam a little, not to brag, but i was the only one swimming then, everyone was scared of the cold water 
Okay, moving onto today :
Breakfast was a messy bowl of oatmeal + banana + pb + kind of berry sauce, just berries boiled with some sugar
After the breakfast i fooled round the house and then went for a check-up at hospital where i was inpatient twice. Had a chat with my crazy doctor, i bet such doctor couldn’t work in the USA or Western Europe because he used to yell at me and violently put a feeding tube on me even though i was willing to eat by myself, i still see that hospital in nightmares. But, i guess his method works because i got better faster than most ED/depression patients with other doctors. And so the doctor thought i am in a good stage enough to stop using antidepressants !!! I am so happy 
I have been using antidepressants on and off for a year and a half, finally i will be free! Of course i won’t just stop using them in one day, but gradually cut out, until after a month or less i’ll be totally free from those nasty chemicals!
For lunch i had a stuffed cabbage – chanterelle mushrooms + tomato slices + dor blue cheese, also had more chanterelle with garlic and salad – spinach + lettuce + basil + parsley + cucumber+some more 
Classy Magnum for dessert
Workout today was a group class at gym called Slow&Strong, not sure if it was slow,but definitely strong! The trainer is one fit man and i suppose he thinks everyone is as tough as he
This is how i enjoy my meals – with hungry pug staring at me with eyes that say : i haven’t eaten for a week, i’m starving! While in reality she had just eaten.
After the gym i walked to grandparents house to get some eggs and cucumbers from their garden and their neighbor hens. Didn’t stay too long, but still it’s nice meeting relatives, only family members i am really close with are my mom and my pug, yep.
Supper was a double cheese sandwich – brie + Holland cheese + tomato alongside leftover salad
For dessert i nibbled some candied oats/like granola and drank a mug of soy milk.
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New handkerchiefs!
I hadn’t seen those in stores for years, but my mother spotted those and immediately thought of her dear daughter who is suffering from chronic cold for all her life. Isn’t that nice from her? And yes, i have chronic cold, i have learned to lessen it with healthy food, walking in forests and near sea as well as drinking herbal teas and working with my mind, but i can not get completely rid of it.
Do you use/have used antidepressants, your opinion on them?
Eli~
Such great news,girl! I am really happy for you,it must be amazing to fee “free” again after a long time.
I’ve never taken antidepressants,even though I was adviced to do so,because I am afraid of unpretty side-effects.
Thank You!
If it was my choice i would have never used them too, when i first started to use them i got severe suicidal thoughts i had never gotten before, then i read it was a common side effect…
I am so pleased for you that you are allowed to stop taking the antidepressents. It must feel like such a relief not to have to take something like that.
I can’t wait till I can stop taking them again!
I have to take antidepressents myself and I really didn’t want to take them. I only took them to shut my doctor up. haha I don’t agree with them because I don’t think it is the right way to sort someones problems out. I have been taking them for a few months though and still take them
Aww, i hope you’ll be able to stop taking them too!
It isn’t like they are totally useless though, there was one downhill moment for me when i got voices in my head and antidepressants shut those off
Ahhh.. congratz that you can stop using anti-depp!!! I was going to be put on them while i was seriously depressed, but both my parents said no. As they didnt want me to have any more medicines (i already take LOADS each day for my other illness…:/) and they didnt know how they would work with all my other medicines, if they would react or any of that… and of course iw as worried about their affects… so i refused aswell.
But then at one stage when i was very depressed and everything was going wrong (no need to get into it!! XD) my mum almost made the doctors put me on anti-depp… but instead i got calming pills, which didnt work so well… they just knocked me out and then when i woke up i still had anxiety….
i dont know.. i take so many medicines and pills each day, but im always going to have to do that. But ive stopped taking calming pills, and all the pills and medicines i took because of anorexia & depression… So thats good!!
It must be so nice to eat such fresh food!! We used to grow our own salad and vegetabels and we had our own hens, and the eggs were amazing!!! I kind of miss it… everything is store bought now.. it’d be nice ot be able to just go into the garden and pick some rips tomatoes or salad!!
And ihave to say… i love tyour dog!!! ‘Too Cute!!’ haha XD
I remember you telling that you have cf! I guess it was right to not take more medicine.
However your doggie girl is adorable too, my mom actually wanted to get a beagle first, but then saw a pug in a dream and it was kind of a sign!
I Love my dog too, she’s totally the cutest animal that has ever existed
Your eats look tasty, especially the Magnum Bar! Though I’ve been eating more vegan-type meals lately, premium ice cream is still very much a part of my daily existence
I think tough love is often the way to go in ED treatment, but the only thing I question about your doctor is the violence – I hope he didn’t physically hurt you! If you can do well and eat well and enough and rich enough (and not overexercise) without antidepressants, YAY YOU! If not, though, there’s no shame on going back on them if you need them – we all think you’re the bee’s knees on or off antidepressants, we just want you happy and healthy 
I’m bee’s knees? This is one of most adorable compliments i have ever gotten – that saying is super funky
Also, my doctor didn’t hit me or anything, he just was uber harsh and made me cry after every talk with him.