I’m still here. It’s just that this ain’t no safe space for me. It’s a public blog, sure it isn’t safe. It’s just that I’m still too weak, too self-conscious, only a tiny bit stronger than depression. Hypocritical too, I suppose, writing a public blog and only wanting a certain group of people to read it. omg ok, now I sound really ~sensitive~ or whatever. But maybe I should just accept it, add my sensitivity to the collection of ~aesthetics~. I rly like aesthetics tbh, I live for aesthetics. The weird ones tho.
I got new dungarees and decided my aesthetics were Tom Sawyer + Scout Finch + awkward queer kid. Some random middle school kids called me farmer Joe, that’s a good one though. Also photos in school’s bathroom are a part of the aesthetics too, aesthetics called ~lol, it’s like 4 months until school is over 4ever~. I do appreciate that our school has a pair of gender neutral bathrooms though, I don’t think they were made with non-binary ppl in mind, but still nice.
I haven’t felt so me for a long time
Talking about bad selfies and stuff: Do not let adults steal this generation from you. Relish in selfies. Snapchat pictures of coffee to your friends, huddle around an iphone to watch Vines. Shamelessly love this generations commodities, like how your parents loved THEIR commodities, like disco or Hammer Pants or whatever else. Do not let angry adults take away your chance to experience the uniqueness of right now [source].
I’m rly tired of studying tbh. Except geography. Geography is nice, I love the part of geography where we learn about nature or geology related things. I’m really into rocks, seriously. I follow countless fb pages about minerals and can’t help, but like them all. I hope my friends appreciate the abundance of cute rocks and minerals on their newsfeed because they should.
Also, I’m angry as hell. the anger in me. the anger and hopelessness I experience in front of bigotry and ignorance and indifference. also the anger towards myself for not speaking up enough, for being so damn shy and anxious.
Also also, can ppl stop expecting all gender non-binary humans to be totally androgynous and thin and tall and claim they’re actually a girl if they wear a dress once? or expecting trans women to shave legs all the time and conform to patriarchal beauty standards? The inhabitants of this planet depress me so so so much.
The Elephant Foot Glacier, this is a fascinating one, isn’t it?
You know, I actually have been considering becoming a park ranger. I know it isn’t an easy job, but a rewarding one, imagine being a ranger in one of North or South America’s majestic parks!!! DREAM!!! It’s pretty said that the field of geology often is associated solely with oil exploration when it’s so much more than that. There’s environmental geology, astrogeology, seismology, glaciology, oceanology etc.! And you can become a park ranger with degree in geology, hah, I’m not saying I’m doing it, but it’s an idea!
another heart-warming quote for those having a bad year so far – i have a good feeling about 2015. woody allen is looking frail and i think with some positive thinking we can finish him this year [source]
this me rn, some stock photo (almost wrote stockpot-that’s a nice food place over here in Riga) obvi
I have a huge list of movies to watch, but I don’t want to because they make me feel lonely and make my life seem uneventful, I don’t find an escape in them. Guess I’ll just sing along to Stevie Nicks and be content.
good luck to all of you poetic noble land mermaids (like Ann from Parks&Rec)